DEAR BLOG | Truly happiness!?

Hello!

Another day of another kind of life I had！Chilling and having flu still, can you please go away？I was wondering what makes me so sick nowadays. I was so proud of myself being the healthy baby all day last time but now somehow I couldn't recover fast nowadays. What's wrong with me?

Anyway, I'd read Timothy Tiah's blog just now, and there is one line that attracted my attention "True happiness is when we can live in the present without recollection of the past and fear of the future". What is true happiness and do we actually truly happy on everything that happened around us? He said he asked his 5 years old son on are you happy today, and the reaction from his son was a wow to him and I felt kid at this age truly accept what they had, everything I guess without any complaint. I salute kids, and why on earth we as an adult are not truly happy on what we had?

Being truly happy isn't that hard as a kid, you are happy when you play with your favourite person or you are happy because you just had an ice cream and yes, it will make you happy for the rest of the day. However, as an adult, are you sure you are happy with just an ice cream? To be honest, I am happy when I had dessert whenever I am freaking sad or emotional, but this is just an instant moment and I still feel sad whenever I couldn't solve a problem or whatsoever! So, TRULY HAPPY!? THen again, my point is we shall learn from kids, having truly happiness will make life simple and good enough!

So, should we choose to be happy or truly happy? I choose TRULY HAPPINESS instead. (Hope so!?)

Alright, shall end here.

xoxo

Lydia Kang

DEAR BLOG | A letter to the young self

Dear blog,

Another day means another perfect day for me to chill out. Perfect? It sounds like it but indeed I am in bad flu now. Just kill me for so sick at this moment.

Sis was in Jeju, Korea right now enjoying her life to the fullest. Just another 3 weeks for me to travel to Korea and please magically settle my rent and all that. God please help me although I am kinda lazy to do all these!! To betray or not are still in my mind now!? Please help me magically solve all these.

Planning to visit my friend's baby boy but I kinda stuck in my bed typing out this blog post and sleeping all day long (mmm!?). While doing all these, Korea plans kinda like attracted me a lot! I can't wait to actually board in the plane and fly over to there right now. Imma not going Jeju but Busan and Seoul, shout out to Korea yo!

Alright, some philosophy moment.

So, I was talking about DO YOU KNOW ME WELL? kind of topic yesterday and surprisingly I saw an insta story from my friend talking about "if you could write a note to your younger self, what would you say?" I was too tired and wrote "sampat". Replied was what does that means?

"Sampat" is Malaysia style phrase with meaning wacky, gaga, silly and all sort of crazy things (googled and got it from a blogger). So when I said sampat doesn't mean is a bad things! I used to think that we (when I said we means tomo) are difference from others, from the way we dress, we write, we chill, we instagram, we facebook, we talk... we are different! There are differences between the normal ladies and us, we don't usually make up but we did it on an occasion although some of us changed and did some make up when we go out chill, it's okay you know!

My point is we are different in the sense that we are not as girly as others and we love being ourselves, the loud and clumsy self. Our Instagram post (yeap, we have a group Instagram just to fill up with those memories of us) are way too different from other girls group Instagram with #OOTD instead of crazy video of us shitting around. You may follow us if you want it -tomo5achi- :)

I wanted to tell my young self, being sampat is not wrong and continue doing it until you are old. You are different but somehow the differences make you perfect enough to the world, somehow people with same frequency/channel will get what you mean. We do what we like and others will love us more. I am proud to be sampat in the sense that I am still young in the inside with all my heart.

To like or not to like by others were the hand of others, but to love or not to love yourself is in your hand. Self-confident is the crucial part of your life, although I couldn't be as confident as others but I'd tried to be one of them. Nope! I shouldn't said try to be one of them, I should say to be confident to be who you are and who you be.

I would like to write a letter a the Young Lydia instead.

Hello Young Lydia,

You probably only 18 years old and thinking what will you be after 10 years. Let me tell you that being at 28 years old will not as perfect as what you think, and also not as scary as what you thought. Being at 18 years old, you thought of studying, which university to enter, which course you are going to enroll, which friend are truthful and so and so... and what life are going to be, probably hanging around with guy was really uncomfortable back then. But...Just don't worry that much, you will be fine after 10 years, you are fine with your results, you are fine with what course you took and you are fine with guys and you are fine with your work except you are still in the midst of looking at which job you are entering will make the best of you. That's it! Life goes on....

Being at 18 years old, studying is the toughest thing ever in your life but trust me, you will be fine because you will have more trouble in the next 10 years or probably 20 years. Besides, at the age of 18, nobody will force you for getting a partner, but trust me after 10 years people start to hunt you down for all kind of partner question. BUT WHATEVER! You will be fine without one I can assure you! Just be yourself and you will be fine. Forcing will have no happiness, get it?

Young Lydia, you will have lots of fun in your next 10 years, lots of travelling and events that happened, making new friends and loss some of the good friends and so and so. You will dye your hair and change your look at the age of 28, you will have lots of close friend that you can call in to shout at them for your sadness, you will have conflict with your friends and family, your sister getting married, lots of babies around you and you are still the same you typing out a letter to your young self today. Life changed, people changed but things somehow did not changed much around.

Remember young Lydia, you probably have the toughest time in your life but you will be fine after all. Trying to be others was the wrong move, and you will get it when times goes by. Things will still the same, and remember the closest friend will stay on until the end of your life, so losing some of your friends ain't big deal, forget it and life goes on. Remember! You are not alone after all, your life will be as fun as what is it, God has plans for all of us. For the next 10 years, you will struggle being yourself, but really trust me you will somehow get what is it in the end. Just remember, be yourself and don't hurt anyone back if you being hurt!

This is a letter to Young Lydia from the Old Lydia (probably not old enough to give valid advise but yeap, still an advice)

xoxo
Old Lydia.

Being old isn't a big deal and remember to live in a simple way!

PS: Don't judge on my grammar mistake :)

xoxo
Lydia

The adventurous of Lydia: It is not FREE!

Hello Hello!

I am back on track for all these. So, yesterday was the day we planned to go for one-day trip in Singapore city. First, we had lunch at Chinatown, I was queuing for their famous chicken rice, 1 Michelin star ok! BUT I am not recommended for.

I just don't understand the taste of it. Chicken rice without chicken rice taste (white rice, basically). Nah! Just a BIG NO for me!!

Second stop: National Galley Singapore (IS NOT FREE!!)

 We really have so much fun in this gallery!

 Join kids activities..

 And HELL we don't really understand all these at ALL!

We were like nah! too old for all these and kids were really damn happy when they saw all kinds of buildings, structures, colours and etc.

 And soundsss of a pot. =__=

 And all we were interested was the wall behind (made of crayon)

LOL!

 Looking at some kids running around while Jen photographing me! HAHAHA!

180cm effect!

All you need is to have a great photographer around while travelling!

Third stop: St. Andrew Church!

So, after realising that the gallery wasn't free, we sneaked out to pay a visit to St. Andrew Church. We were talking about our friend's joke while walking toward the church, joke of how we used to tease Lily! HAHAHA *inside joke*

Trying to take a picture of me with the church and end nah! I need more practices. Some said practice makes perfect! Teehee!

 And seriously why my eyes look so tiring. Damn!

Fourth stop: Esplanade

Adopting instead of buying!
Walking around the area and having fun talking and walking.

Life isn't that bad anyway.

Fifth stop: PS Cafe

 High tea before going for the event!

Just chocolate nut thingy! So long never blog so I wouldn't remember every food name already.
I will remember it starting today, I promise!

Sixth stop: the EVENT!

And bought a heel and blouse for brata's wedding next 2 weeks!

I am kinda excited to go for the wedding after bought my heel and blouse!

16 September 2018 will be the wedding day, stay tuned for more updates. *I hope*

XOXO

New year new me? Nah!!

Hello everyone,

I guess I am the only one get back on track! 

After months of living here, I have officially resigned (again!?) and living a jobless life all over again. Things happened for all kind of reasons and I am starting to accept to facts that I am not good as compared to others (probably!).

Thing isn't as simple as compared to life back in KL, the people, the culture, the self-protection and etc. One thing that I have learned from all these is self-protection is crucial in every circumstances! Anyway, life goes on! #lawofattractions

**off the negativity**

I have read an article about some blog site (mostly used by Taiwanese, I guess) we used to go in and read blogs, and just think of it, that's was really fun whereby I used to go in and read their blog as well as some stories made up by them (just like watching drama episode by episode). Those daysss...

We have always discussed about what we will try to amend if we have a chance to go back to year 2007, which is freaking 10 years ago. I would say I wish to amend my studies and social life, but the woman I was yesterday, introduced me to the woman I am today. Without the fun me in Year 2007, there wouldn't be ME today. I always thanks to the universe that I have been through that year and I am so lucky that I was assigned to my class, the jolly, happy-go-lucky and noisy class. We used to have a lot of fun (although I was the one who always standing right beside everyone looking at those "drama" goes on), BBQ in the padang (i.e. field), toilet dates (i.e. everyone will ask each other to go toilet together for the sake of chit-chatting), canteen dates (used to bully those "junior" prefect by asking them to seek permission from their "senior" for asking us to go back class), drama, lotsa drama and etc. We are proud to be who we are, I would say. We are the St. Davidian!

I bet all of us will think that we are the lousy class, nah! We are NOT, and we are always playing with all kind of people around. I will always remember the day when we went to hike at the St. Paul (my very first time) and all those kind faintness I felt was omg! I can't even breath properly after hiking, feel dying after we were up at the top, thanks God we survived was the thought I had that time. Too exaggerated I know *teehee*.

Memories warm you up from the inside...and life still goes on as usual.

So, now! What would I do if I given a chance to turn back to year 2017?

I WOULD JUST SIT BACK AND ENJOY ALL THESE MOMENTS ALL OVER AGAIN! 

To enjoy all the fun all over again, the people, the friendship and the LIFE!

With the chance, thanks to the universe of what given to me before and now, I love you and thank you! 

xoxo

Hello I am back!

Hello!

I am back on track, I hope!

I have been busy lately with working and some personal emotional.
I have a thought that there is a limit being friend, even a good friend. There is a line between each other, even we are the best friend, sometimes line are just there.

I would say I will be there whenever you need it even currently we are not as close as what we are last time. Things changed, situation changed even people are changing, but friendship will never end just like this, I believe.

As I said, you need to know what is the line between both of you whenever all these situation changed, but somehow I can't! I felt left out for a moment, when I said for a moment mean literally days and months. I felt kinda weird that I am being left out in this situation and because I am too sensitive, I couldn't stop thinking. I am letting it goes now, like real. However, I just want to say that we are still friend but not as close as like time anymore, barrier created!

I always create barrier with people, I don't get close with someone else real fast, and I will make sure I am super close with them once I let the wall down! But, I started to create the wall again, why? I thought I can get rid of this wall thing but I can't. Is that emotional? I don't think so. I just realised that barrier really exist!

Maybe as what you said I am narrow-minded, but things happened and I couldn't absorb fast enough to every situation, I am sorry! Just I am pretty sure that we won't be as close as what we are last time. Letting it goes is the best way I guess!

Life isn't just like this, there are more to explore.

Life isn't the way we always expect, we must go on in every situation.

Life goes on....

Dayre officially say goodbye to us

Hello everyone!

I guess I'm gonna come back to blogspot to express my everything from now on. I used to blog alot of thing here but when dayre was there I somehow shift my daily sadness to there. A platform whereby I express alot of my personal feeling, work stress and etc. Besides, I always thought that this not gonna end so soon. Oh well, I'm wrong! Dayre gonna close soon!

Why?

Apparently it said the cost is more than what they earned so they decided to close this platform. I'm sad! I used to read alot there (or I should said stalk hahahaha) and now NO MORE!

😭😭😭😭

Anyway I thanks dayre for having us able to express our feeling as well as sharing alot of thing at once.

I'm now gonna declare that I'm back blogging here yo! Hope I can do it as frequent as possible.

Signed off!

First day

Hello everyone!

Today is the first day of my new life in other land as well as my friend last day in my ex-firm. This is how life changes when you are in a new environment, new people and gonna start a new life.

I bet I will be that kind of lazy person who wouldn't step out of the house often.

I have always thought that everything will be alright, me being in Malaysia and work at the same place forever but nope! This wouldn't happen with the encouragement from my friends. I guess that how's life goes on..

Speaking of last day, my last day in the firm was kinda excited and rushing and now this was what happening to my friend as well. Always though that my friend wouldn't leave the firm and continue for another 2 years, but nope leaving is the only choice. Weird!

Life cycle! What comes around goes around!

I wish we would be alright after this and meet again in somewhere else.

Peace out!

Xoxo
Lydia

A BRAND new life begin

Hello I'm here again!

What I'd done for the whole year was quite meaningful and travel makes me comfortable to life again.

Speaking of new life, imma going to Singapore soon.. Like in one more week. I wasn't sure is this the right choice but I always believed everything happened for a reason. There must be some kind of reason I got a chance to work there and meet all my friends again.  I wished I could really meet all my friend back in KL and Melaka again!

Some of my other friend once told me that colleagues will not be your friend forever and you MUST be careful of everything you said and I believed it until I met Daphne (my first trusted friend in the firm) in one of our job. I wasn't that kind of girl that will say hi to anyone that I'm not familiar with, but this freaking girl just say hi to me and she was the first hotelmate of mine. Since then we chit chat alot..like ALOT! She is the one that taught all of us the laws of attraction and us, the sampated people will always tease on the effect of LOA! Imma gonna meet her soon in other land! *excited*

Besides, I still believe everything happened for a reason. Without that particular engagement of mine, I wouldn't make so much close friends in the firm. When I said close friends, I meant it! Like real close friend that still contact each other every single stupid days.. either sad or happy.. we shared alot of moment together. I treasured every moment we hang out, talk and etc! Cherish every moment and I always told them that just imagine if we are not in that particular job together last year, we wouldn't be so close to each other and couldn't share every moment together happily. I guess this is how we are being put together in that job! Believe in faith!

Just remembered how tough life could be when we were doing our works, boss were barking, clients rushing at us and some idiots throwing us to some deep sea, but we still alive in our way! Family mart, llao llao and ramen is our happiness! When I'm in sad mood, ramen will be our dinner and llao llao or family mart would be our dessert! The moment was the greatest!

I wished we could go back to that particular moment and no works please! Lolololol

Happiness or sadness? We should cherish every moment in life!

Wish me luck in my next every moment and wish that I could meet all of them in Singapore Soon! <3<3<3<3

Xoxo
Lydia

New Year New Me

Hello everyone!

Probably no one reading this but anyway the title has say it out. New Year New Me!

I had resigned from my previous job 5 months ago and I'm feeling motivated to go Singapore.

I was half way giving up on this dream but somehow someone had motivated me to go on with it. Speaking of motivation, I guess that's the reason why I feel I'm gonna go and start a life there. I wasn't that keen to go after too high expectation from my family and etc., but the om suddenly hit me badly after my friend decided to resign from the firm. Hence, I started my "journey" of applying Singapore's job 3 days before new year, and surprisingly I got call from them last two days. Thank GOD! I felt blessed!

Everything happened for a reason is what I always tell myself. If my friend never thought of resigning and planning to go Singapore, I guess I won't be that motivated to do it again.

I truly thanks to my friend that motivated me! (My mom was truly laugh out loud when I got the call and I know I had made a great decision)

And finger crossed that the company accept me and my friend. I believe in Laws of attraction!!

We always make fun of Laws of attraction aka LOA but it really works. From the day I receive that call I felt an om to continue waiting for good news! And surprisingly the call came after my friend told me he got a call from them. Lolololol!

I guess LOA really works!

I'm so blessing! And believe it or not, my some other friends already book me for being a housemate eventhough I'm still yet to go through interview. This is how blissful I felt whenever others still think of me no matter how far away I am.

Although I had resigned from the company but I still contacting some of them and honestly I felt I am so lucky to have such friend that I can reach out no matter how sad or happy I am. I always had a feeling that all these people could be my life time friend and I hope they will be.

I feel blessed I have wonderful people around me no matter how hard life can be. Just imagine that there is always someone you can reach and seek help from when you really need help. Everything!

They might jokingly tell you that you are annoying but somehow I don't feel paiseh (embarrass) to seek help from them. This is what true friend would do I guess! I heart them from the bottom of my heart! Serious!

Life can be as happy and freely as a bird! And friend can be as sticky as glue and yet you wouldn't feel annoy at all.

#friendship
#people that you can talk with
#heartthem

Xoxo
Lydia