Sunday, May 13, 2018

Hello I am back!

Hello!

I am back on track, I hope!

I have been busy lately with working and some personal emotional.
I have a thought that there is a limit being friend, even a good friend. There is a line between each other, even we are the best friend, sometimes line are just there.

I would say I will be there whenever you need it even currently we are not as close as what we are last time. Things changed, situation changed even people are changing, but friendship will never end just like this, I believe.

As I said, you need to know what is the line between both of you whenever all these situation changed, but somehow I can't! I felt left out for a moment, when I said for a moment mean literally days and months. I felt kinda weird that I am being left out in this situation and because I am too sensitive, I couldn't stop thinking. I am letting it goes now, like real. However, I just want to say that we are still friend but not as close as like time anymore, barrier created!

I always create barrier with people, I don't get close with someone else real fast, and I will make sure I am super close with them once I let the wall down! But, I started to create the wall again, why? I thought I can get rid of this wall thing but I can't. Is that emotional? I don't think so. I just realised that barrier really exist!

Maybe as what you said I am narrow-minded, but things happened and I couldn't absorb fast enough to every situation, I am sorry! Just I am pretty sure that we won't be as close as what we are last time. Letting it goes is the best way I guess!

Life isn't just like this, there are more to explore.

Life isn't the way we always expect, we must go on in every situation.

Life goes on....

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Dayre officially say goodbye to us

Hello everyone!

I guess I'm gonna come back to blogspot to express my everything from now on. I used to blog alot of thing here but when dayre was there I somehow shift my daily sadness to there. A platform whereby I express alot of my personal feeling, work stress and etc. Besides, I always thought that this not gonna end so soon. Oh well, I'm wrong! Dayre gonna close soon!

Why?

Apparently it said the cost is more than what they earned so they decided to close this platform. I'm sad! I used to read alot there (or I should said stalk hahahaha) and now NO MORE!

😭😭😭😭

Anyway I thanks dayre for having us able to express our feeling as well as sharing alot of thing at once.

I'm now gonna declare that I'm back blogging here yo! Hope I can do it as frequent as possible.

Signed off!

Friday, January 26, 2018

First day

Hello everyone!

Today is the first day of my new life in other land as well as my friend last day in my ex-firm. This is how life changes when you are in a new environment, new people and gonna start a new life.

I bet I will be that kind of lazy person who wouldn't step out of the house often.

I have always thought that everything will be alright, me being in Malaysia and work at the same place forever but nope! This wouldn't happen with the encouragement from my friends. I guess that how's life goes on..

Speaking of last day, my last day in the firm was kinda excited and rushing and now this was what happening to my friend as well. Always though that my friend wouldn't leave the firm and continue for another 2 years, but nope leaving is the only choice. Weird!

Life cycle! What comes around goes around!

I wish we would be alright after this and meet again in somewhere else.

Peace out!

Xoxo
Lydia

Thursday, January 18, 2018

A BRAND new life begin

Hello I'm here again!

What I'd done for the whole year was quite meaningful and travel makes me comfortable to life again.

Speaking of new life, imma going to Singapore soon.. Like in one more week. I wasn't sure is this the right choice but I always believed everything happened for a reason. There must be some kind of reason I got a chance to work there and meet all my friends again.  I wished I could really meet all my friend back in KL and Melaka again!

Some of my other friend once told me that colleagues will not be your friend forever and you MUST be careful of everything you said and I believed it until I met Daphne (my first trusted friend in the firm) in one of our job. I wasn't that kind of girl that will say hi to anyone that I'm not familiar with, but this freaking girl just say hi to me and she was the first hotelmate of mine. Since then we chit chat alot..like ALOT! She is the one that taught all of us the laws of attraction and us, the sampated people will always tease on the effect of LOA! Imma gonna meet her soon in other land! *excited*

Besides, I still believe everything happened for a reason. Without that particular engagement of mine, I wouldn't make so much close friends in the firm. When I said close friends, I meant it! Like real close friend that still contact each other every single stupid days.. either sad or happy.. we shared alot of moment together. I treasured every moment we hang out, talk and etc! Cherish every moment and I always told them that just imagine if we are not in that particular job together last year, we wouldn't be so close to each other and couldn't share every moment together happily. I guess this is how we are being put together in that job! Believe in faith!

Just remembered how tough life could be when we were doing our works, boss were barking, clients rushing at us and some idiots throwing us to some deep sea, but we still alive in our way! Family mart, llao llao and ramen is our happiness! When I'm in sad mood, ramen will be our dinner and llao llao or family mart would be our dessert! The moment was the greatest!

I wished we could go back to that particular moment and no works please! Lolololol

Happiness or sadness? We should cherish every moment in life!

Wish me luck in my next every moment and wish that I could meet all of them in Singapore Soon! <3<3<3<3

Xoxo
Lydia

Friday, January 5, 2018

New Year New Me

Hello everyone!

Probably no one reading this but anyway the title has say it out. New Year New Me!

I had resigned from my previous job 5 months ago and I'm feeling motivated to go Singapore.

I was half way giving up on this dream but somehow someone had motivated me to go on with it. Speaking of motivation, I guess that's the reason why I feel I'm gonna go and start a life there. I wasn't that keen to go after too high expectation from my family and etc., but the om suddenly hit me badly after my friend decided to resign from the firm. Hence, I started my "journey" of applying Singapore's job 3 days before new year, and surprisingly I got call from them last two days. Thank GOD! I felt blessed!

Everything happened for a reason is what I always tell myself. If my friend never thought of resigning and planning to go Singapore, I guess I won't be that motivated to do it again.

I truly thanks to my friend that motivated me! (My mom was truly laugh out loud when I got the call and I know I had made a great decision)

And finger crossed that the company accept me and my friend. I believe in Laws of attraction!!

We always make fun of Laws of attraction aka LOA but it really works. From the day I receive that call I felt an om to continue waiting for good news! And surprisingly the call came after my friend told me he got a call from them. Lolololol!

I guess LOA really works!

I'm so blessing! And believe it or not, my some other friends already book me for being a housemate eventhough I'm still yet to go through interview. This is how blissful I felt whenever others still think of me no matter how far away I am.

Although I had resigned from the company but I still contacting some of them and honestly I felt I am so lucky to have such friend that I can reach out no matter how sad or happy I am. I always had a feeling that all these people could be my life time friend and I hope they will be.

I feel blessed I have wonderful people around me no matter how hard life can be. Just imagine that there is always someone you can reach and seek help from when you really need help. Everything!

They might jokingly tell you that you are annoying but somehow I don't feel paiseh (embarrass) to seek help from them. This is what true friend would do I guess! I heart them from the bottom of my heart! Serious!

Life can be as happy and freely as a bird! And friend can be as sticky as glue and yet you wouldn't feel annoy at all.

#friendship
#people that you can talk with
#heartthem

Xoxo
Lydia

Thursday, February 9, 2017

#Life

Life isn't that miserable..
Life isn't that tough..
Life isn't that difficult...

Communication isn't that hard..
Communication makes life easier..
Communication is a tool to bond each other...

However,...

Communication can be tool to destroy a friendship... 
Relationship...
Hardship...
Trust..
Honesty...

And makes life miserable..
Tough...
Difficult...

Human being create communication tool… And yet we are the one who misuse it. Verbal communication seems like a simple task everyday but it somehow ruined others life with complicated way.

Isn’t that simple life is good for us?

Human being complicate the whole process, and the process somehow makes others unhappy.

1 + 1 = 2, simple person will agree, but complicated one will tend to confuse others by giving something else and they do not know what they are trying to tell the other party.

I do not understand why there is always communication breakdown among the human being. Misunderstanding can lead to big problem and people hurt.

And most importantly, the way of communication can either hurt or comfort others. There are reasons why people tend to have lesser friends, and I guess all goes to communication.

Girls and guys have different perspective when come to communication, and when someone offended another party, that’s it. Your life is ruined by some jerk who doesn’t know what is going on here.

This is not about your whole life, but at the particular time, that person has ruined your life (partial) by hurting or insulting you. It is true that forgiven is important but too much forgiven make the person think that you are alright with this kind of attitude.

So now, what we should do when this kind of person kept come and made you stress all day?

Honestly, I do not have a solution yet. I had encounter this problem right now, and I am trying to be harsh with that person (just to tell him/her that I do not like this way of communication) but it doesn’t seem to work at ALL.

Thick face? No! I think different people have different perspective of communication. I choose to be friendly, and that person could be the opposite side.

That person (let named as a) talked to me regarding these many times, and I kinda pity “a” because he couldn’t get friends in the department. I gave some suggestions/advices regarding all these, but somehow I couldn’t link to “a” thinking. For example, a told me that my friend went overseas job with a senior, and she went out celebrating New Year with her boyfriend without the senior. I couldn’t understand this at ALL. “a” had rebuked my friend for not bringing the senior out for New Year celebration. SERIOUSLY? And “a” said this is the reason why that senior is going to resign soon. I am like WHAT? Are you serious?

First, I don’t think is because of that causing the senior to resign (some other reason everyone know except “a”)

Secondly, why would I even want to join a couple date?

Thirdly, I wouldn’t even join some gathering with tons of unfamiliar faces! I mean can, but I don’t want my friend to entertain me and at the same entertaining her own friend. Correct?

Being over friendly makes others hold back, and because of this question, we almost fight in the office. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT? Some stupid things!

However, this is fine for me as it is not my problem.

My problem is when you asked someone question, PLEASE LISTEN TO OTHERS AND NOT ASKING SOMEONE TO AGREE YOU WHEN THEY ARE NOT!

This pissed me off these few days in the office, and I couldn’t control myself from being a rude person.

I was really stress out with my laptop in the ICU (IT department) plus not able to retrieve all my data out. I felt sad and was figuring ways to save my lappie.

And you know what? This fella really pissed me off by wording! “a” said GOOGLE CAN FIND ONE AH, SAID DON’T HAVE! YOU LIKE DON’T CARE ABOUT IT LIKE THAT!

WTH???

Am I look like I don’t care? Don’t judge people when you are not in their position can or not?

I really damn pissed off with this kind of people and I don’t know why I am still able to talk to him. Anyway, my laptop was fine in the end, and nobody hurt so I just forgive. I believe KARMA!

People who don’t treat others well will not treat well by others as well, and this is proven! Nobody like “a” except people like us who don’t care and forgive!

Life is so difficult with this kind of people around you.

And I should stop being like that…

This is what I wanted to conclude life isn’t that bad when you have communicate in a better way!

Good luck!

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

CNY| sum up my days

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Had a great CNY with le familie althought there is circumstances whereby I need to work in the morning and everyone else were having their breakfast outside but I'm still happy tho. 

This year was special because 2nd uncle and aunty went Hatyai and i got to have a great bonding with cousin throughout the day. 

Less gamble but more bonding, less mature but more childhood memories, less people but more bonding. That's sum up my whole 4 freaking days. 

Chu Xi (The reunion day)

 The annual thing to do list, family portrait. We have less people this time.

2nd uncle and aunty went Hatyai and bro wasn't in Malaysia this time.

#less3people

 The awesome dinner. Miss home cooked so much.

 First (?) Ang pau of the year. Saja!

From parent by the way.

We had so much fun on that day, played pop pop with little cousins and claimed that we are so young. Haha!

Ps: uncle was like please lah. So old already still wanna act young. Lol

Chuyi (First day)

 First time had tang yuan during first day of CNY. My mom had this idea of having it with le familie. So much fun when we were together making the tang yuan.

 And we planned to wear red on the first day.

Ps: everyone did a great job!

 With cousins.

 The girls. Five of us grown up so much until we laughed when we were seeing our childhood photo together.

Everyone still look the same except we are taller now.

 The only guys in the group.

This is how my bro felt last time without them. Meh!!! Why so many girls one? Lol.

 Mom and aunts prepared and served us this. So delicious and I love tang yuan so much.

 First day also meant to be Pizza day. #surprisedinnerbecauseunclewonteatfastfoodatall

 So cheesy i likey.

Chu er (second day)

Second day of CNY also known as the blue day.

 My sis and I bought the same shoes this year (no same clothes, shoes also can lol.) and it is so cute with the smiley face.

 This is what I meant, the blue day. We did not pakat (planned) this time, i swear! It was so coincidentally all the cousins wore the same colour that day.

 And the little cousins somehow matched with us well.

#pattern
 BTS | when we were posing for a picture.

 Before that, this is what Daphne sent me when she was in the state. I love it soooo much. Thank you so mucccchhhh.

 Chu er is meant for Lou Shang. And we had home made this time.

 And also meant to squeeze some brain juice with the gang!

 Tomo's short gathering too!

Thanks Shin's sis for the winter hat. #tingpleasejoinusinperth

So much fun with le gang this year, we had less time together but more appreciation.

Chu3 (third day)

A special day because uncle decided to stay in Melaka until Chu4 this year. This means we got to hang out together more time.

Went movie with le familie, kung fu yoga yesterday. So much fun listening to the little one laugh non stop in the cinema.

 Had second home made lou shang with a smallwr family group.

Better than the one we had the day before.

And i mean this! Haha. 

These sum up my holidays this year. Had so much fun and tomorrow gonna be a happy working day. 

That's all. Bye!