DEAR BLOG: 2023

Dear blog, 

It's been another year of hiatus. Imma forgot to update throughout the year. 

2023 is a wonderful post covid year. 

Travelling is a thing for everyone now. 

I have been starting to travel quite often this year and cross quite a number of to-do-list of my life.

Early of the year, March 2023 I went Rishikesh, India for Yoga International Event 2023 and hike Kedarkantha summit (12,500 feet) with my yoga teacher, Faye. 

The trip was a fruitful one, at least I crossed one of my to-do-list, hiking to the summit. My plan was to hike Kota Kinabalu, but couldn't make it, so yeap! Here I go for Kedarkantha summit. To be honest, I was quite pissed off with one of the member during the hike, because she was the best hiker and I am the beginner. But then, I still achieve my goal and Imma so proud of myself. 

Never give up on your dream, no matter how painful and difficult your journey is. 

Here am I and snow mountain of Kedarkantha! 

And this is the first time I saw snow! Love it to the max!

Stayed in this tent for a night. It's freezing cold! -10 celcius but worth the cold.

Best experience ever and thinking to join Kota Kinabalu hike if I have the chance to do so. If you ask me what have I prepare for the hike, I would say regular exercise helps a lot although my teammate for the hike gonna kill me of me being too slow for the hike. Sorry peeps! 

Another trip of mine was SOLO TO TAIWAN for HEBE's concert!

This was quite a big move for me. I never ever think me being the always-lost-in-direction girl can have a peaceful solo trip to Taiwan. My initial plan was to have a concert experience in Taiwan someday of my life, then this concert came through like few weeks after I have the strong thought of it. LAW OF ATTRACTION WORKS peeps! Like wow! How this could happened in few weeks time and Daphne has been telling me to join her Taiwan trip in August this year. What a coincident lah!

I still remember how cool it is to clock in to the website and get my ass down for this ticket. I was really chillax on this, no stress (Ok.. I did stress when I finally went in to the website and I couldn't get one of the date I wanted which is when SHE was on the stage day DAMN IT!) and here I click and here and I got it. WTH! That's like freaking 3 minutes to get everything on! I whatsapp Daph and told her IMMA GOING TO TAIWAN ON THIS THIS DATE! WTH THIS IS LAW OF ATTRACTION FOR SURE!

Here goes the first SOLO trip of mine. Pretty peaceful and chillax one. I went to places that I never got to visit from last trip and to be honest I got impressed on food selection in this trip. I wasn't a food person when come to trip and Taiwan food (no offend) was not my type. Sorry Taiwanese, I know you will curse me for sure. But yeap! Not fancy on their food especially their fried food and oyster fried to be exact! The texture and everything just not right for me. 

However, some of their food impressed me this time, for example their train bento was good for me and their Japanese restaurant was a boom too! Dessert wise I prefer their taro ice! 

My first time in 擎天刚，阳明山

As you can see the weather was quite cloudy that day but I am so lucky that it rains after I'd finished my hike! So grateful.

Jiufen! 

Imma damn shameless setting the camera at anywhere just for a nice picture. I don't care and I love this moment! 

The dark cloud doesn't stop me from setting up my phone for a picture!

Love!

My favourite taro and I would say this is the best with the bestest view ever!

Hot and cool at the same time. 

The train Bento. 

I regret not to try other flavour before heading back Malaysia. 

So nice and worth it!

By the way, I am standing at this Flip Flop Hostel with a bunch of ladies from different countries. Quite an experience. People are so nice with me and send me small gift whenever they checked out from the room. Glad to experience this kind of hostel for few days before heading to a proper hotel room.

 And you can guess how happy I am with the view at 擎天刚

A day tour with these bunch of people. They are basically all from Hong Kong, Malaysia and Singapore. Is a great experience to have a day tour with them and I am kinda chillax all the way. No rushing here and there. Our tour guide also served us well with her loud voice and sense of humor.

I am loving SOLO trip after this trip. It's like I am really resting and no rushing all the time. I did not really plan through the week but somehow I enjoy every moment of it. The people I met, the food I ate and the scenery/places I went. It's just a great experience. 

Anyway, I catched two birds with one stone, SOLO and Concert trip. It was really damn nice!

Looking forward to my year end trip with Shin and my family. 

Hong Kong and Danang here I come. 

More updates (hope so) will be on.... If I still remember I have a blog on this.

Teehee!

Love,

Lydia.

Dear BLOG: A perfect day for some thoughts

Since I have some time to actually “hae” during working hour, I shall write something.

How should I begin this…

Heard a song this morning while having my toilet break...

“ohh if I showed you my flaws, would you run away, or would you stay?”

Yes, if I showed you my flaws, would you run away or would you stay? This is what everyone was afraid of, or maybe that’s was just me. This was what I frequently asked myself last time, and just think about it, what am I afraid of? I am afraid of losing friendship? Or I am afraid of people don’t like me? But that’s wasn’t any that sync to what I am doing right now. I don’t often contact people that I don’t often interact with or contact me. There is one thing that I realized I changed friend often and I do not have any long-term friendship that stick to the end, probably only one or two?

I changed friend from kindergarten to primary to work life and I used to envy people who still has their childhood friend stick around. I wish to have it, but I don’t because I myself contact none of them. I believe we will be meeting each other again next time.

天下没有不散的宴席，、
但每一次的分离，
也都是为了下一次的重逢

So back to the topic of flaws…

I used to be this person that do not like people commenting on my flaws and I will get frustrated/anxious whenever someone easily point out my flaws unintentionally. I don’t really like it but just think about it, why should I be frustrated/angry when they point out? What’s make me frustrated/angry? LACK OF CONFIDENCE!

A person who lacks confidence/knowledge will frustrated when people point out their flaws. This is what I suppose! And just think about it, I am exactly that person last time and I am being more open minded when I am getting older. Right now! At the age of 30+ (with the pandemic), I am kinda release and realized how dumbass I am back then (I mean 2 or 3 years back – the darkest years of my life up to now). I just ruined everything with my frustration and anxious. My dumbass mind just thinks of blaming others for pointing out my flaws, my bad my stupidity. I am that frustrated person who really in angry mode all the time and tend to lock myself in darkness!

All thanks to this pandemic, I gained some self-acknowledgement on my thinking and I would not get frustrated or sad when others having fun or happiness. This is a good thing that at least I gained some self-realization during this scary pandemic. People just don’t point out something that is unnecessarily, and you know you can’t see your own flaws without anyone pointing out. You are weak on something and you shall enhance it without frustration/angry. You shall do something if you are not good enough and not blaming other not giving you any good resources.

You ruined something you amend it but if you can’t amend it, just let it go without looking back. When you regret and just think of what the root cause of it. You got no blame on others with your own wrong and keep moving forward to gain other thing that you have not discover.

每个人的一生中，
都有后悔的时刻，
但无论如何我们都无法使时光倒流。

就接受呗！

Thanks to all the people appeared in my life and sorry if I have no contacted most of them but you all meant something in my life up until now.

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

And Sorry if I have offended most of you in your past. 😊

PS: Nothing to do with any story in your mind, is just a thought for today. It is kinda dark post but believe me, this is the brightest post I’ve written throughout these few years. I am totally in my brightest mood while writing this! I love to read back what I have written in the future.

PSS: Sunny day for a blog post

PSSS: 10.10 is around the corner, please spend as much as you want during this time ok? HAHAHAHAHA #auntylifeforever

 

Alright, spent 15 minutes to write down thought was the best ever! Still, I do not know the name of the song ☹

**no read-proof, sorry if a lot of grammar mistake you have notice**

Back to the beginning

 Hello everyone!

I bet some of you have been suffering on losing job again and again throughout the year, especially we were in FMCO - Force MCO (Changed name like nobody) now. Honestly, I already too used to lockdown in Malaysia. 

I kinda frustrated when things are not properly plan when come to all these lockdown situation. I feel there is always people complaining when come to lockdown and I believe we also need to do our part in order to make it effective. I have read a lot of news and some really quite pissed me, especially those employee who force to go to office even though they are not the essential company. Why they simply just let their employees suffer? I know from employer point of view is that they need to monitor their employees there and then, and some claimed that WFH really not working for them due to people not going to work at home. But honestly if you don't trust your employees, why you hire them?

And I know most of my friend quite good in WFH situation and love it instantly because firstly we don't need to stuck in the jam to go to work, save time and more sleeping time. Secondly, we have more free time as in more time to complete our work as well. Honestly, I am not 100% focus on work during my wfh time BUT I'll make sure my job done before I even have a free time. And serious speaking, don't you feel guilty if you don't even completed your job before you are having fun?

Logically, people will feel guilty about it unless you are that kind of person who really don't like you job and don't give a shit on it. Then, that's fine, you win! What I am trying to say is please trust your employee, because they really did work at home and not taking their own sweet time when there is a deadline, please!

I sound like an aunty nagging all the time but I heard too much ridiculous way of handling employees during wfh. One of the  most ridiculous way is that boss will spot check their employees by having a sudden call, meaning their employee must be 24/7 on their laptop, even toilet break WTH!!!!?? 

Are you freaking kidding me? 

What if I got sudden stomachache? What if I already want to pangsai and still need to take my laptop to the toilet while I poo? You better be the same as what I did if you asked me to do so. Very funny huh!

So yup, nagging like a mom! Please trust your employee!

KTHXBYE! LOLOL

Recap of 2020

Is this too late to do a recap of 2020 in March?

Nah... Late better than none right?

2020 wasn't great for most of the people on earth, covid-19 has served everyone bad. I was being lock in the house (technically mco since 18 March) for a year and there are high and low during this year. 

Good:

1. Lose some weight 

I have reduced some weight and gained some muscle during mco, cmco, rmco whatever you wanna named it. Not like I really lost a lot of weight but I felt leaner and properly is just nothing for all of you when seeing me again but I felt so. 

2. Reconnecting with old friend

I have been in this emotional breakdown situation few years back after I back from Singapore and I don't know why everytime it hits me hard when think about it. I wasn't in a good situation at the beginning of 2020, but I had gradually alright and reconnected with old friend again. It's back to the old us of having fun chit-chatting all over again. Thanks shopeee LOLOL! You know what it meant for. 

3. Gained more knowledge 

I read a lot during lockdown and, trust me you will gain more knowledge on your mindset. I've been reading even before mco, but somehow, I picked up more during the so-called free time of mine.

4. Exercise regularly

Exercise wasn’t my thing until mco. I literally will feel faint after running in a treadmill or outside of the park, so cardio exercise was a no for me all the time until I pick it up in 2020. I can feel I gained more stamina and I can literally do a 30 mins intensive cardio without feeling fainted. Great job but it also causes me to have some health problem lah. that’s another thing to say about it.  

5. Self-care

I care more on myself than others. Self-care doesn’t mean you are selfish or what, but it helps you to build up more confidence. I do more plating on my meal, especially breakfast. I enjoyed every meal I had with movie, YouTube video or even drama. I used to simply have a meal and didn’t really enjoy much on it but this year I did it even for my breakfast. No rushing and enjoy.

Bad

1. Health condition

I have some hormone imbalance after intensive exercise (as what doctor prescribe) during mco so too much exercise also a no for our body and I learnt it. I am currently having medication for it and went through all the scanning weeks before. Pretty good still.

2. Social anxiety

I guess I will have some social anxiety after being at home for so long, but I tried to be active these days, for example hiking, yoga and etc to feel more activated. I’ve no seen friends for like ages and we used to joke around saying what if we are back to office and we can’t recognize everyone anymore LOLOL. To be honest, this wfh situation really make us feel apart and some of my colleague are leaving us soon sigh!

3. COVID-19

Ok! I shall put it as first but as you all know covid does impact our life a lot. Mask and sanitizer are a new norm. MCO, RMCO, CMCO wasn’t unfamiliar with everyone in the country. Even dining-out was a grateful thing for all of us. Grab and food panda were our friends same goes to Lazada and Shopee! They used to say it’s great that we lockdown so that we don’t spend much. Are you sure about it now? LOLOL

Throughout the year, I have gained more than losing it. Conclusion, 2020 wasn’t a bad year for me but I know it hurt most people especially those who losing their job because of this virus thing!

Hope 2021 will be a better year ahead.

DEAR Blog| A month of your pass

Nicky has passed for a month now. Every moment of you flash back when I accidentally search a movie name "Marley and me" today. 

This movie has resonated how we have been together for the pass 14.5 years and how you have chosen to leave us a month ago. Every sickness Marley, the dog in the movie faced was what you had as well, stomachache. The sickness that cause your pass and probably that's old age sickness for dogs. Never realised that today marked your one month pass, and is it you are the one that want me to watch that movie so I remember it has been a month without you?

I miss you alot. I cried so hard when the Marley pass, and it just remind me of you so much. In the movie, the owner tell Marley please let him know when he chose to leave, the owner doesn't want to help him make a decision and this is also what I told you when you are sick months ago before you pass. You are alright after that and it comes again after few months...I think this time you chose to pass. 

You are very brave to actually stay for few more months with us and you gave us a lot of happiness throughout the years. Every single scene in that movie resonated to our life with you, happiness, frustration, anger and afterall we always mentioned about how funny and happy you make us all. I really miss you a lot boy! 

Boy is the word that are irreplacable, you will always be my number 1 little brother that is tinny, naughty, cutest and smartest. 

And I hope you love the flower I planted for you although some had rotten but I'll replace a nee flower without replace you in my heart. Love you much!

xoxo

Lydia

Dear BLOG| Dad says

While playing mahjong with dad yesterday...

Me: *grumpy* Pa, very loud leh you put the mahjong.
Dad: En..
Momi: Ya lo, why so loud?

Then second round...

Dad: *pick a mahjong and throw it silently* heh! Need to put it slowly..slowly..

Me: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Momi: HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Third round when my dad put it silently again...

Me and Momi: HAHHAAHHAAHAHA

Dad: *wondering* Why you keep laugh?
Me: Coz you are a joker!

Dad: You very happy hor!

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My dad really a hidden joker man!

Dear BLOG| 7th day of Nicky Passed

Today mark the 7th day of Nicky passed and he doesn't come back to visit us, or maybe he doesn't make any noise when come in to the house. I hope he gave me some signal of his appearance. I wish he is good there in the heaven.

Past few days was quite a struggle one, not mentally (I'm accepting the fact that he left) but physically because the iguana out there kept dig out his grave. I'm angry but at the same time think this is the circle of life, maybe. We built up a stone grave now and no more digging happen anymore. I'm grateful for that.

After his passed, Lucky (another dog of mine) seems a bit abnormal or I would say manja. She will knock the door (literally use her hand to knock the door ok!) and ask to come in the house. It probably also due to fire crackers as well as thunder storm out there, but she just different in her way of sleeping. Momi said she miss him, did she? She not used to loving Nicky anyway, but I think she somehow miss his accompany and annoyances.

We miss you, boy!

Hope you come back and visit us and I know you always can't recognise the route back home but please let us know when you come back ok?

I miss you and wanted to dream of you one more time. Please be careful when you walk on the street because it's raining now. Be safe and be a happy angel in the heaven.

Miss you.

xoxo
Your sis, Lydia