Dear blog,
Another day means another perfect day for me to chill out. Perfect? It sounds like it but indeed I am in bad flu now. Just kill me for so sick at this moment.
Sis was in Jeju, Korea right now enjoying her life to the fullest. Just another 3 weeks for me to travel to Korea and please magically settle my rent and all that. God please help me although I am kinda lazy to do all these!! To betray or not are still in my mind now!? Please help me magically solve all these.
Planning to visit my friend's baby boy but I kinda stuck in my bed typing out this blog post and sleeping all day long (mmm!?). While doing all these, Korea plans kinda like attracted me a lot! I can't wait to actually board in the plane and fly over to there right now. Imma not going Jeju but Busan and Seoul, shout out to Korea yo!
Alright, some philosophy moment.
So, I was talking about DO YOU KNOW ME WELL? kind of topic yesterday and surprisingly I saw an insta story from my friend talking about "if you could write a note to your younger self, what would you say?" I was too tired and wrote "sampat". Replied was what does that means?
"Sampat" is Malaysia style phrase with meaning wacky, gaga, silly and all sort of crazy things (googled and got it from a blogger). So when I said sampat doesn't mean is a bad things! I used to think that we (when I said we means tomo) are difference from others, from the way we dress, we write, we chill, we instagram, we facebook, we talk... we are different! There are differences between the normal ladies and us, we don't usually make up but we did it on an occasion although some of us changed and did some make up when we go out chill, it's okay you know!
My point is we are different in the sense that we are not as girly as others and we love being ourselves, the loud and clumsy self. Our Instagram post (yeap, we have a group Instagram just to fill up with those memories of us) are way too different from other girls group Instagram with #OOTD instead of crazy video of us shitting around. You may follow us if you want it -tomo5achi- :)
I wanted to tell my young self, being sampat is not wrong and continue doing it until you are old. You are different but somehow the differences make you perfect enough to the world, somehow people with same frequency/channel will get what you mean. We do what we like and others will love us more. I am proud to be sampat in the sense that I am still young in the inside with all my heart.
To like or not to like by others were the hand of others, but to love or not to love yourself is in your hand. Self-confident is the crucial part of your life, although I couldn't be as confident as others but I'd tried to be one of them. Nope! I shouldn't said try to be one of them, I should say to be confident to be who you are and who you be.
I would like to write a letter a the Young Lydia instead.
Hello Young Lydia,
You probably only 18 years old and thinking what will you be after 10 years. Let me tell you that being at 28 years old will not as perfect as what you think, and also not as scary as what you thought. Being at 18 years old, you thought of studying, which university to enter, which course you are going to enroll, which friend are truthful and so and so... and what life are going to be, probably hanging around with guy was really uncomfortable back then. But...Just don't worry that much, you will be fine after 10 years, you are fine with your results, you are fine with what course you took and you are fine with guys and you are fine with your work except you are still in the midst of looking at which job you are entering will make the best of you. That's it! Life goes on....
Being at 18 years old, studying is the toughest thing ever in your life but trust me, you will be fine because you will have more trouble in the next 10 years or probably 20 years. Besides, at the age of 18, nobody will force you for getting a partner, but trust me after 10 years people start to hunt you down for all kind of partner question. BUT WHATEVER! You will be fine without one I can assure you! Just be yourself and you will be fine. Forcing will have no happiness, get it?
Young Lydia, you will have lots of fun in your next 10 years, lots of travelling and events that happened, making new friends and loss some of the good friends and so and so. You will dye your hair and change your look at the age of 28, you will have lots of close friend that you can call in to shout at them for your sadness, you will have conflict with your friends and family, your sister getting married, lots of babies around you and you are still the same you typing out a letter to your young self today. Life changed, people changed but things somehow did not changed much around.
Remember young Lydia, you probably have the toughest time in your life but you will be fine after all. Trying to be others was the wrong move, and you will get it when times goes by. Things will still the same, and remember the closest friend will stay on until the end of your life, so losing some of your friends ain't big deal, forget it and life goes on. Remember! You are not alone after all, your life will be as fun as what is it, God has plans for all of us. For the next 10 years, you will struggle being yourself, but really trust me you will somehow get what is it in the end. Just remember, be yourself and don't hurt anyone back if you being hurt!
This is a letter to Young Lydia from the Old Lydia (probably not old enough to give valid advise but yeap, still an advice)
xoxo
Old Lydia.
Being old isn't a big deal and remember to live in a simple way!
PS: Don't judge on my grammar mistake :)
xoxo
Lydia
